hi guys,

i'm as mad as hell at the moment,
because the nursing home administerater has now decided that i cant have 4 days respite care every month for mum like she said i could....short term respite care is better for mum, because shes not so confused.

but now she will only take her for 2 weeks every so often....go figure

sometimes i feel like i am being tested, to see if i'm still doing the control thing.

and sure enough sometimes i am, cause at the end of the day, i'm angry cause things wont go my way....

and thats what gets me into trouble, DOING THINGS MY WAY!

it never worked before, so why should it suddenly work now?

gosh i love when i work things out for myself....
what i need to do is hand this over to my hp and accept his plan for me and mum...cause i sure as hell cant MAKE the adminsiterater take mum for 4 days a month....
though i did try
tipical acoa style

its so hard to brake this way of thinking, that we can control everyone in our world.

before acoa i must have thought i was superwoman, cause i thought i was in control of everyones life...turns out i wasnt even in control of my own.

hope you guys are all well, and that you all post something sometime

love in recovery,
irish

the control freak I am Knows how true it is what you saying and I have been trying this new way of life, trusth a HP, sit back, relax and enjoy the trip, but how difficult it is! often I find myself again trying to control situations and handle it all... just to fail again , of course, never could do it... but spent years trying!

Thanks for your posts, been reading each one of them and they are helping me lots, more than you can imagine.

Would like to chat some day

Hugs,
Lucia

hi lucia
thanks for replying.
i was just about to give up posting when i seen your reply post.

sometimes i think that my hp puts ppl in my life to remind me that i dont HAVE to do things the old way.

one of the traits of being a acoa is never seeing something through when things aren't going the way they would like them to.

today you reminded me of that....so thank you!

love in recovery,
irish.