Hi I m Katie. I am in love with my fiance who is an alcohoic and addict. When we met he had been in recovery for three years that scared me at first but he seemed so together. Right after Thanksgiving this lat year he relapsed, He went on a 6 day crack binge. I sat in his house for six days wandering if he was alive I couldnt eat or sleep or believe this was happening to me. I am very close to my family and i couldnt tell them what was going on I still cant tell them. I am very alone in this. When my fiance came back from his binge he had spent over 8,000 dollars. He went right nto a rehab clinic for 3 weeks. I moved into his house when he got out partly cause I was scared to let him out of my sigh. he has been doing well and very active in his meetings and meets with his sponsor reguarly. I am proud of him for that. We have also been going to counseling once a week. I have good days and bad days its so hard for me to trust him, sometimes I get in these moods and just start crying, sometimes I find my self picking fights with him. I feel I cant trust him in any aspect like latelt I have had these dreams that he is cheating on me and I find myself waking up horrified. I am so insecure with myself now. I used to be sucha happy person I didnt grow up in a family where drinking and deugs were even an issue. I cant help but stopping sometimes and asking myself," How did I get here?"
Thanks
Bride 2 Be

Hi Katie,

My name is Kat I have been married to a drinker and crank addict for 33 years beleave me if you are not a stroung person do not try this problem buy your self. It is very hard like you I never had drinking or drugs in my life when I met my husband I fell deepley in love with him. He broke my heart hundreds of times I had 2 children with him and thinking that would make him happy but it nothing ever made him happy. We broke up and and went back together a few time but is like I was addicted to him. I finly had a nervice brake down and had to be put a way which was a good thing because I found Alnon.
I found out how to live with him and when to talk to him not to bother him or hind bills from him. I started taking care of my self and got a job. Then a something happened he went all by him self to a rehab I was in shock. That was 7 years ago and it has not been an eazy ride but now we go to AA togheter and Alnon he is still a very sick man and I am still a sick codo. I was in Alnon for 15 years before he went to rehab. but he did it on his own if you Man has a AA big book around there, is a chapter wrote to the wife of the Alchohlic please read it it will help you under stand. If you would like to e-mail me my jmcpuddin@aol.com good luck Love Kat