hi guys,

today i learned something new about myself.

i went to the counsellor today, and while i was parking my car i noticed there was three workmen working near the door where i do my councling....(passing by a group of men always makes me very panicy)
anyway, i could feel the anxity starting up in me and then felt like i was sweating, i drove further into the carpark to see if there was another way i could get into the building so i wouldnt have to pass them....but there wasnt, so i had no chioce but to pass right by these guys.

and this angered me that i felt so intimadated by them...so i parked my car right beside them, took a deep breath and walked right pass them....

when i got into the counsellor she asked what was wrong, becaue i looked stressed out. and i told her.

then she showed me how my negitive thinking was making me feel intimadated,and i did this excerisis with her, picturing whats the worse thing that could happen if i walked pass these men...and after it i calmed down.....but the magical part was, that on the way out i had to pass these guys again....and l started to get panicy again, but then i did what she suggested and stopped myself thinking about the guys being there and started thinking about something else.....and believe it or not this worked.

replacing the negitive/distructive thoughts with positive thoughts helped me to over come something i have found very stressful all my life.

i now feel like i have control over how i feel, weather it be negitive or positive.

love in recovery
irish