have you been here before, aren't you aware what it's like to be happy. why do we always forget that great color of the pink cloud. I remember this time, after the jails and institutions..who wants death. Humble yourself, get real...you know i want to.

HI ARTZLADY. I FEEL THE SAME WAY. IVE TRIED MANY TIMES TO QUIT AND THINKING I COULD CONTROL IT THIS TIME. WE DO FORGET THE "BAD" TIMES AND THATS WHAT WE NEED TO REMEMBER. IVE BEEN CLEAN 60 DAYS AND IM JUST NOT HAPPY. BUT I ALSO REMEMBER THAT I DONT WANT TO GO BACK TO USING. I JUST KNOW THIS TIME IF I GO BACK TO USING THE ONLY THING LEFT IS DEATH AND NO ONE WANTS THAT.
KELLY