[/COLOR] My husband and I have been together for 4 years. We have been married almost 1 year. When I married him he had been sober for 5 or 6 years. He was very strong in his recovery, working at a job helping others with addiction & alcoholism and still is. But he relapsed recently. I have tried talking to him, begging him, everything. He knows what he has to do but won't stop! He lies continuously to me and says he has stopped but I know different. I love him so much and I want to help him but I can't. He's not violent or mean. He's actually very understanding of me. I have started going to Al-Anon but with his job I feel trapped. How do I get through this. I feel hurt, misleaded, mad--you name it and I am feeling it! I don't trust him not to lie to me. We had a very special bond that he broke. He was my best friend, and I now feel betrayed. We have talked about this so many times. It is hard for me to get through to him or myself. I feel like maybe I did something to make him drink again.He keeps telling me it's not my fault. He knows all the right answers to tell me but still keeps hiding his drinking from me. If anyone has any advice PLEASE let me know.