I am married to an alcoholic. He was a recovering alcoholic up until probably 6 months ago. He was sober for 6 years. We got married about 6 months before he drank again. He is 17 yrs my elder has never had kids has military background knows how to lie straight-faced. I can't help but wonder if he jumped in too deep marrying me. I love him so much and I know he loves me but where did the problem become a problem? He won't talk to me about it most of the time and when he does--he lies to me. Tells me everything I want to hear. But what I want to hear is the truth. I don't know what to do. I don't want to leave him, I want to stick by his side. In sickness and in health. I want to support him but he won't support himself when it comes to the booze. He is a great provider for our family. He is a good man. Just won't let go of the bottle. I get so angry and it is hard to let my feelings out to him because I don't want to fight. I just want him to do what he knows he needs to do. I need to learn to deal with this and I don't know how.
Thanks for listening and any advice is welcome.
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