While I was in the chat room the other night and I recived some good advice. (thanks to all of you, you know who you are) Anyway the advice that was given sent me in the direction of the big book to the chapter for alanon. I couldn't believe how many comparisons thier were with my relathoinship and the chapter. It was good to know I am not alone in feelling this way. The part about not wanting to go out or bring friends around because of his drinking really hit home. I am a avery sociable person and I have noticed myself withdrawing from friends because I am afraid of him acting up. I hate that!!!!
I was also noticing how in order to support your spouse you are not to anger them and kind of cater to their illness. Yes these are great suggestions and I hope they work.....but forgive me if I'm wrong...Right now after years of his drinking, drugging, lieing, staying out all night, stealing $ and drinking ourburst, that last thing I want to do is be understanding!!! I know if you love someone you really should go that extra mile but damn it !when is he going to go that extra mile I already feel like I am doing everything to keep our family together. I am rambling again and I am sure my typo errors are emense but please let me hear some feed back on my resentment. Am I wrong?
