Hey all,

I had a bad weekend. And thinking of it, my worst times use to be weekends or middle of night. Thats when I am not busy. Thats when I have time to spend on expectations, premonitions, projecting and get anxious about everything.

The last weekend I thought I would have to stop online aa and start to wonder about how I would do without it, as for the last year it is been a great part of my life and my recovery.

I also made planes about actions and got so concern about the results of it to my sobriety that finally I just found myself totally unable to follow that plan.

Today I had a more than stressful day. But I was so busy, that I only could see it all as I arrive home, it is night and my mind goes around it racing.

Anyhow, the program works. I am in step nine and not back to zero or one. I mean, under pressure and lots of emotions with my sober friends help I made another weekend and another day sober.

Thanks to all that help. Thank you reading it now. Good to know I am not alone.

Hugs

Lucia! You are doing great!

Not drinking is the easy part. The test comes when life starts beating us up. Learning how to handle life like "normal people" is the hard part. It is not always pleasant (but it is not always pleasant for non-drinkers either).

I went through more emotional struggles sober than I ever did drunk, unless we include the constant "wallowing in self pity," which I always had while drinking.

It's going to get better, because every day you will get stronger.

Love,
Dean

Hi Lucia:

You at least took the right steps, ask for help, what I try to do is read or talk to someone, don't give up on yur on-line friends, I found them a great help, when I get tired or alone, I can go on-line to any number of places and find someone.

Talk to you sometime, E-mail me.

Doug C. (sober today)

Can relate to head spinning at night. Find that it helps to get to a meeting the next day & that the more meetings I do - the less head miles I do. Trying the online option as well at the moment. Think that it all helps. Keep on coming back!

You are not alone.

George W

GOOD JOB, I TRY READING READING ANYTHING TO RELAX,SOMETIMES THE BIBLE, SOMTIMES BIG BOOK, FIND A MEETING, BUT MOST MOST EFFECTIVE TOOL IS THE SERENITY PRAYER, I USE THAT ALOT AND IT REALLY HELPS