Hey I finally did the steps and am in the maintenance ones (10-12).

After many trying and failling, I finally have what is it step 10:

" ... And we have ceased fighting anything or anyone-even alcohol. For by
this time sanity will have returned. We will seldom be interested in liquor.
If tempted, we recoil from it as from a hot flame. We react sanely and
normally, and we will find that this has happened automatically. We will see
that our new attitude toward liquor has been given us without any thought or
effort on our part. It just comes! That is the miracle of it. We are not
fighting it, neither are we avoiding temptation. We feel as though we had
been placed in a position of neutrality-safe and protected. We have not even
sworn off. Instead, the problem has been removed. It does not exist for us.
We are neither cocky nor are we afraid. That is how we react so long as we
keep in fit spiritual condition. ..."

And yes, miracles start to happen to me.

It is a new life!