Hello I am new to the NA fellowship as an Addict. I finally found a group where I fit in. However in order to fit in I had to go to the extent I did with my addictive personality. I am newly out of treatment and have come home only to learn about the consequences of my using. I went with my son and his grandma to his checkup and boy was that a blow to my self-worth. The doctor no longer speaks to me but to the grandmother. It hit a sad area in my heart, to think that I have lost the trust of not only my family and children but have been so out of the loop that professionals avoid me. I do not have a car at this time and know I need to get to meetings regularly. I have not given up the fight but it is that, a FIGHT. It is a fight to keep my head up, a fight to not give up, a fight to not let my disease get me, through my thoughts and a fight to stay out of seclution. It maybe a fight by I must FIGHT every second, minute, hour daily or it will get me again. I will keep coming back.

Hi, corio1991. Welcome to the forums!

It takes a while to deal with the wreckage. Stay close to your new-found group. Hang in there.

Congratulations on the beginning of your new life!