It seems like I'm too old to still be effected by my childhood or lack of childhood, but it keeps rearing it's ugly head time and time again. The most current slap is from the fact that I'm 9 years from retirement and have no money. I'm quite capable and own my own business with 4 employees, but I take less than the rest of tham. I have debt and they all own much better homes than I do. Mine is not paid for. If I got sick I could lose it. I go along with whatever movie my wife wants to see, I cook and eat whatever the rest of the family wants. I have very little time to change before I will need more to simply survive. I have to start recognising my need first and simply don't know how. Any suggestions out there?