It's amazing to me, the fact that some of the people i have meet through A.A are some of the brightest and most intellectual people i have ever encountered. In meetings and just hanging out, i have met people that can captivate an entire audience with simple stories. These people and myself, however, used these gifts to tell imaculate stories their whole lives in order to feed their addiction. I certainly did it, and not to be boastful, but with some success for a long time. I lied to everyone around me. I bent the truth and skewed reality just so i could suffer no reprocussions for my actions. I now realize that it took a really hard fall to the ground to stop the stories from coming out. Of course, i am human, and even sober i still have had a tendency to distort reality. But, theres a glaring difference now. The difference being, I now reflect after a day or event and become brutally honest with myself. I take log and make sure that i make right the wrongs that i created. And being that i am human, i must say that a daily dose of reality makes it somewhat nice to be able to breathe again without wincing from the angst.