Hello fellow members lets start with the serenity prayer..

I am new in sobriety but not new to the program, I started in Al-Anon because it was my ex-husbands fault our marriage broke-down and he was the alcoholic not me!!! After some honesty I came to believe that I was a very big part and I say PART of the problem today I am working on me .. My husband is no longer in my life and continues to use and laughs in my face about my sobriety and my new life.. I am doing well but I second guess myself more than I should I am a girl and love to talk ... I am taking a nurse's assistants course, working, going to aa at least 3 times a week and raising a child.. I got a cramp just writing that!! Some days are great and others i catch myself standing there going " What the hell are u doing" and this is where the confusion sets in .. I run to my postive influences but as they say in aa we can drink by ourselves we can not get sober by ourselves..

I wish u all another 24 hours hope to hear from you soon

Vanessa

Hi Vanessa,
Confusion, Oh I know that mind set well. I use to spend a lot of time trying to figure out what God wanted for me. I finally figured out that he wanted me to go ahead and live my life and that the only time I will ever see what he wants for me is in 20/20 hind sight.
Now I just live my life and don't worry about what his plan for me is. If he doesn't like what I am doing then he'll let me know.
I went to college to get my degree about 14 years ago. I still don't have it.
I am not young anymore. My family paid a high price for my desire to get my degree but I had good honest motives and the fact that I don't have it yet is not for my trying. I may have to do something else because I have to start paying off my loans. I still don't know what he wants for me, I just turn my life and will over to his care every day and do what I think is best. That has meant a lot of different things but the ONE thing I have had through it all is that I have stayed sober.
I finally figured out that staying sober "is" the ONE thing he "does" want for me so that's the one that stays right up there in front.
The rest is pure gravy.
Keep on Trudging Vanessa, you'll get there.
Hugs,
PamW